I finished reading The Placebo is You by Dr. Joe Dispenza yesterday and it was another one of those books that jolts you out of your normal patterns of thinking and forces you to look at the world through a different lens. The premise of the book is how you can manifest your ideal future life with a thought alone. The part that woke me up was when reading how having the same thoughts triggers the same emotions, the same beliefs, the same perceptions and ultimately that means your future is your past 🤯 We’re all running on this hamster wheel thinking we’re going places when really, we keep churning out the same thing day after day. No wonder we’re frustrated and angry!

The other concept that really spoke to me was the chapter on the quantum. Scientists discovered that subatomic particles exist all at one time in an infinite combination of possibilities or probabilities in the infinite quantum field of energy. Until we “observe” these possibilities and give our attention to them, they will stay latent. Literally we have all this potential within us and we keep taking the same neural pathways year after year…what type of life would we lead if we chose a different thought? On the same train of thought that means a thought of a future event you want to experience is a reality that already exists on the quantum field waiting to be manifested if you pay attention to it. The energy flows where the attention goes. That is so powerful! I can will something into existence if I truly believe in it and act on the thought with intention and “elevated emotion”. Two days ago I started reciting affirmations in the morning. There were some meditations at the end of the book that I’ll say to myself before bed. There was a case study of someone in the book that started to do things differently to trigger shake herself out of routine – she would get out of bed on the other side, take a different route to work, etcetc. I’ll start with walking my dogs on a different route. Becoming a new person is daunting, because your habits, temperament, ideas, and identity are based on what you know – unlearning or learning new behaviours is hard…and what’s harder is believing that you will get there but also shedding who you are now for some unknown person you will become. I was supposed to get up at 7Am today and couldn’t muster the strength to do it. I fell back to my 9am default. BUT i will keep trying to adjust my life until I get to where I want to be!

Went on a huge tangent, but the title is related to the lessons I learned in the book. I was feeling quite down last week thinking about someone I dated – I really missed them. Now, I have a refreshed view of why the feeling of longing is still there 1 year post breakup: this person allowed me to see a different future by making me feel loved, secure, certain– before him, those things were never synonymous with a relationship. He made me feel safe to consider a future where I could be happy in a relationship and I formed a new possibility in the quantum field of possibilities. I understand that what a person makes you feel does not equate to whether that person is compatible or good for you. In any case, I felt like we were very similar and triggered each other’s trauma but that’s also what drew us to each other. However, I am thankful for the experience because it made me realize something I never knew existed before and more importantly that the love I needed was within all along. I just had to pay attention.